=)

its been long since i last update my blog. been real busy recently. haha. projects. schools. and exams. well.. luckily i manage to pass all my paper. grins.

nothin much. i skip todae morning lecture again. Oops. but no worries.. wil attend the other one at 2pm ltr if not the lecture will chase after me i guess. haha.

ytd went to interview lydia for our crm project.. reach home ard 1am?

ha.. nt bad. tink it goes quite smoothly. but nid to edit here n there for the video. =)

father & daughter playing:

7.11.07

finally.! end of MST wk.. haha.
oh yea. went k box with karen n gang.. hee.. its a very nice singing session with a very fabulous dinner after tat at Hip Diners. =)
pics. pics. pics.

Obesession

hmm. aileen said she wan new pics of mine in friendster rather than my ger. she said im ObEssEd with my ger. haha. True! haha. of cos wad

vina just turned 5 mths old on the 31st. hee..

below this video clip is when she is trying to train her head. haha.. listen carefully.. she made alot of sound.. hahaha..

Close out Day!

hmm. Close out day at True yesterday. so! we are all in home clothes instead of uniform. =) grinz. hee. hmm. so i brought my cam n took lots of pics with my darlingz at True. haha.

hee. these are all my freaking darlingz at True yoga. hahaha..

=)

E-learning!

gOsh goSh gosh.
today.. i start doing my e-learning work alrdy. reading all the lectures materials so that i could do the quizzes and mcq online easily BUT!!. No!

gosh. the tourism MCQ is so so darn hard.
its totally different from the lecture notes lo.
asking qns like "Name the meseum in which the painting Mona Lisa is exhibited." and "An attraction in Turkey, which features hundreds of caves churches and natual rock formation."
i mean.. dah??
how would i know? its not stated in the notes neither nor i go these countries before! gosH.
summore i failed this MCQ. 30 qns man.. -_-"
how to pasS~!?

na.

vina in her dress.

hee

hee. vina in her dress.

vina: aW.. shy shy. mama dun film me.

these pics are when vina is 4 mths old:

vina have lots of expression in this video. haha.

lap skin.

hmm. today end lecture at ard 12. waited for jas to do our lappy skin together. =)
grin. 2 for 26 bucks. which is cheap to us. haha.
happily choosing the skin with different patterns in the hot weather which make us sweat like hell.
chose the skin for 15 mins and waited for like an hour in the queue for the lady to do it for us. but its okay. worth it i gues. hee.. i like it. looking at all the skins. feel like taking all back with me. haha. Oops.

oh yea..
wanted to get a DS lite
am very tempted by jo's DS.
gosh.
oh yea. those guys in my clique are all hooked up with their PSP.
haha. wonder to get a second hand Lite or to get a new one. but.. is it worth to get a new one?
hmm.

Someone tel me?

na.

Formal pics.

had a small tiff with dan just now. hmm.

but im okay. guess people will have small fights to improve r/s. haha.

hmm. i finally gt the formal photos alrdy. hee. i loaded some in friendster.

=)

jas.na.kar.

kar.na.jas.jan.

P.S. hey guys. thanx for everything. ur support. giving me moral support all the way thru hard times. am deeply appreciate. hugs. =)

i lurve this pic =)

Cheeky grin.

unable to zZz.

unable to zzz tonite. dunno why.
yea.. got the news of the guys are planning to go taiwan next yr.
disappointment filled within me. cos i wanted to go so badly with them bt i cant.. am not disappointed with them but is in me. at one point i feel that if i din do anythin "wrong", things wun happen then i can happily graduate with them together, and can even go overseas with them..but i realise this is a selfish thoughts that i shouldn't have. cos i have two of my precious people in my life now which i treasure lot more than anything else.and of cos. i did not regret with what decision i've made.

me. myself. i noe wat im thinking and doing, now i have a more responsibility than just being a gd student to get gd grades.
my goal nw nt only to study hard but as well to work hard to provide my little ger with what i can.
its alrite. theres always next time to go with them =). and. i believe. =)

friends, thanks for being there for me during my toughest period and walk with me through.
am cherishing the time i have with you guys before you all graduate.
thanks. i really appreciate and cherish our friendship lots.
loves.

na.

My new hair.

hmm. todae.. off dae for me. went to do my hair. hmm dye n highlighted alittle.
well.. i cut my hair short today.. guess get myself a new n fresh look.
well.. feel gd cutting off.. =)

nth much todae. spent the whole dae with vina.

play too much with her alrdy.
haha.

na.

haji lane

haji lane? suppose to spell it this way? right?
ha.
today after school went with karen n guys to haji lane.. manage to get myself a top. =) grin.
the clothes all very nice but costly.. yup.
shall go there again. grin.
well.. did meet up with tere n aileen. they are doing great. hee. glad to see them and hear from them too. thats enough le.. =)
hmmm. after the shop. we took our dinner at fish n co. at PS. hee. nice environment cos the people there seem all ready to welcome hallowean. OOps. i feel tt i spelt wrong again. haha.

Jas, if u happen to see this.
we should go shop the lane next time round, the clothes and accessories are lovely =)

na.

Bond of class 3B/14

=)
now at T2135. Com lab for only ICT people. haha. im trying to act like a ict student inside the lab using computer. haha. lazy to bring lappy out.

sarah and rest busy doing their fyp here. haha. i look extra. so i act busy also. haha.

well. the project grouping is really a headache.why cant "people" in the class try to understand our situation here? its not easy to group and oh please ! "people"! hope you guys can understand. but i doubt so, and never will i guess. :P
the rest of us like what? charity home ar? keep all those unwanted?
Please. from first sem of yr2 till now. anybody can understand? HELLO?!

Ar. Heck la.
my wish.
i wish to work with any other people in my class.. but people is always in their own world.
why cant we just communicate? yr3 le wor.. you guys are graduating soon.. this is the last projects that i will be doing with you guys.. but you people still stick to yourselves.. give us a chance. yes. you guys din even give us any chance to even ask whether is it okay to work with you all.
feeling wasted.
mixed feeling.
feel like the bonding of a class is divded into two.
ha.
when i joined other classes in my forward modules, they all so united. and so even project grouping. why cant we? :x

School.

In sch.
went for 1pm tutorial lesson.. but.. teacher dismiss us at 1:30pm.. gosh... nid to wait for another 2 hours before FM lecture starts.. sians. always like that. haha.
later going to work.. hmm. wonder what kind of members would we bump into tonight.. Grin.

Porfoilo. CSB teacher sae nid to prepare portfolio for his interview.. gosh. what can i put in except my testimonials and result slips inside? hmm.. my SYF band foto? haha.

sians. luckily i finish up my tutorials in the weekends. now i gt the time to rest..
but weekends i got to help out at true. cos the rest are celebrating hari raya..
=) its alrite. begin to enjoy working there. =)

i've learnt how to ignore and pretend.


Grin.

na.

weekends

hmm.. weekends. my off daes.. haha. finally got time for my ger.
nid to do some revision and work.. hmm. i miss my friends. but they are always so busy.. why.. i also busy ma. but i can make time. cos no matter how busy i am.. i will make time for you guys.

AR. nothing much to write man.
hey guys.
the show brown sugar macchiato is nice to watch.
X-family also . hee.

nana.

Back!

hee. guys. im back.. haha. so so so long din update my blog till friends told reminded mie. Oops. haha
well.. update people alittle. currently im back to sch! finally! i cherish my sch life now than ever than decided to cherish the time tt i left with my current peers.
hmm. currently working in true yoga. hmm relax job but stress at times but gd pay i guess..
admit its tiring to sch n work at the same time. but i willing to do it. willing to do it for my ger. wanted to provid her whatever i can. =)
laugh at me if u think its funny. but when one dae you guys turn into someone's parent, you will know how it feels being a mum or a dad.
yea its true that mum is noble, and im proud of my daughter =)

vina turn 4 mths already.. time really flies.. now she is trying to talk to me already.. haha. so sweet. no matter how low my mood are for the dae , when i get back home.. look at her.. i just feel gd again.. shes my everything, my goal, and my strength to move on in life.

Following is some of vina's video. =)

That was when she just born ..

2.8.07

hmm. i went to catch movie with dan tt dae. we watched Vacancy. hmm.. well.. though its written horror & suspense but the ending part of the show not tt nice.. haha. hmm it does scares me when the main leads in the show running here and there to escape.
haa.. when i see them panting.. i also pant.. hahaha. so kan qiong to watch.

hmm. tt evening , only 5 people including us watch tt movie. haha so pathetic.
should watch with lots of people then its fun but 5 people only.. haha the atmosphere there isnt that well. haha.

i wanna watch rush hour 3 also.
hmm. got to plan my time. haha.

talk to avelyn ytd in msn. shes working at borders, she say not tat bad and asking me to consider to work there.. hmm maybe i will. still considering. yup... she said huge management, good pay. soo.... * considering * haha.

so fast. aUg already. hoping sept cumming soon.. i wanna return school badly. I wun complain the journey to school is long, i wun complain we got long breaks, i wun complain the lecture is boring, i wun complain.. i wun.. i just miss everyone and wanted to cherish my time studying with my peers and my studies.

i made a photo album for vina. hee. shall collect all her fotos. =)
now my life is surround with vina. looks like nothing but only vina. my sister bf say i siao already. no la.. i still concern about my studies.. just that everyday seeing her grown bit by bit i feel good.. more that any word can describe.

Esthervina 2mths old!

hee.

woah. so long... din update my blog.. ya lazy to write.. cos it seems like im doin the same stuff over n over again everydae.. haha so i nt sure what to write. hmmm. it become a routine. haha

hmm. 24th of sept start sch.. excited plus a little nervous. its been long .

hee. i miss my friends. i really do. =)

vina is doing great for the past two months. yea ytd she just turn 2 mths old =) but she seen doc thrice.. it pains me to see her coughing and feeling terrible with her throat filled with lots of phelgm that make her hard to sleep at nite.

i understood. n i finally understood how my mum feels when im sick.

its not easy being a mum.

i understand.

i wanted to thank my mum. thank her for everything.. from my pregancy till vina is here.. till helping to take care of vina.. but i don't know how to tel her. but i sincerely appreciate what she is doing.

been doing housechords.. been watching vcds.. been changing diapers.. been feeding milk.. been playing with vina.. been trying to be a good wife and mother.. been trying to get myself mentally prepare to get back to sch.. yup .. and also been wanting to have a good meal with my buddies and catch up with them.. but.. its seems like.. nevermind.. =)

Xiu jing! thank you! thank you for accompanying me to jog in the nite. thanx for being my motivator.. hee. =)

Below i shall share some of esthervina pics. hee. =)

Attitude face. =)

*blur*

my sleeping beauty. grin.

mummy loves u. *mucks*

yea. k k.. shall update soon.. Ciao! =)

Esthervina =)

hee. been abit busy at home lately. helping dan with his sch project. wah. just like studying. but gd ar. like tt i manage to study other stuff too. he is in diploma in international hotel management. so its like about hotel stuff n all.. hmm. not bad though. i helped him with two of his reports and powerpoint.. hmm. ok la. help him do then my brain wun rust. haha.

hmm nothing much. beside resting. changing diapers. feeding. i will go online watch youtube.. while resting. cos cant sit up too much. must rest in bed. haha.

i dunno is i think of my grandma too much but i dreamt of her.. she came to visit vina with my grandfather in my dream! gosh. hee.

oh yea. dan allows esthervina to take foto le. haha

guess wad??

i caught her smiling. n i faster took it down. wah. its not easy man. i waited for her to smile . haha. but this shot is nice. haha. soo cute.

hee. my precious girl. Esthervina. =)

simple.

this blog suppose to be a simple n personal "journal" of mine to keep track of my pregnancy.. haha. but well i guess its alrite to show others and share my experience n stuff..

i miss sch. i miss friends. i miss the sun. i miss movies. but still alrite. i noe i still able to do what i wanna do in future, just abit rush of time but i hope i can manage.

dan promise to bring me out for movie after my confinement period. =) hee. so swt of him.

vina is very healthy. hee. i secretly took down a pic of her small hand. hee . so cute.

i lurve her with all my heart. she is my everything.

I miss her.

i miss her.

my beloved grandma passed away todae.

she been waiting.. waiting. dunno for who.. bt i cant go see her.. even the last time.

im at confinement period and vina not even a mth.. so i cant go visit her.

im feeling depressed. so sad.. cos i cant even visit her.. even for the last time.

tears keep falling down from my eyes to my cheeks while im feeding vina.. im feeling so upset that i cant keep it.. i cant control my tears..

i din even let her see vina how can she just go like tt...

my grandma was alwways so swt. so cute. she will always stay in my heart.. love ya grandma.

=)

everydae is the same for me. hmm. milo.longan drink. ginger meat with fish n veg. mmm. but todae diff. haha. hmmm.. chicken brew with red wine. hmmm. n chicken with XO. gosh. haha.. hmm.. the more i see vina each dae.. the more pretty she is growing. hee.. like to move here and there le.. haha. hmm she like to KPO here n there le.. haha her big round eye like to turn here and there. haha. i turn on FM to let her listen everydae.. haha.

todae manage to wash myself with the herbal water that mum cook. finally. i get to wash myself. Ohh.. cannot tahan. hahaha. decided to cut my hair. yup short. hahha. i guesss its easier.

my stitches is healing now.. im able to move around more often.. manage to feed and change the diaper for my baby. haha. =)

Yes! annother 2 more wks or so i can go out le.. very fast one.. (trying to console myself) . haha. but yea. rite now i dun feel like seeing anyone also.. haha . i feel dirty cos cant shower. i feel awful lo.. so its best when i can meet up with the friends after my confinement period. haha.

todae xj brought my chicken essence. haha. so swt of her. thanx ger! haha. i reali appreciate it! =) hugz.

k k.. i cant get up too long. got to rest le.. hee. update tml. ciao~

hee....

Namey~

hee. just gotten vina her full name. haha . gonna get it reg soon~
Her full name is Chia Xin Yun Esthervina Ramdan. hee.. beautiful. haha. mmm. went for check up in the polyclinic.. doctor say she is fine. doing very well n dun nid to go back le.. haha. =) grin grin. she gain weight! which is a gd sign too.. afterall she abit premature. yup. hee.. onli lik a wk+ her hair grow quite long.. hee. sweet girl but hate to bath. cry so loud when showering. haha.
hmm. now confinement period. got to stay at home.. cannot eat outside food. cannot shower. cannot drink plain water. everydae drink longan water with red dates and hot milo. sleep the whole dae. nid to rest n get my bone back to the original. cos mama sae during labour the bone go all stretch out.. now must rest n lie more for it to recover.. ya lo.

haha. cannot tahan dan.. everydae cum back or before work will keep staring n disturb vina.. kiss her here n there. till her face gt abit of rash. i forbid him to kiss her face already. cos baby face sensative ma. haha.
k k.. enuff here.. continue tml.. check out on vina le.. ciao~ haha.

Amazing experience.

Back.

haha. its really been awhile that i last blogged. well.. haha what to sae. was in the hospital for 9 days till i delivered esthervina on the 31st of may. haha.. she come early.. expected delivery was suppose to be on the 30th of june. but luckily she is able to come home with me without having to stay in the specialcare unit. well. my husband said cos vina is a newborn so its best not to take her pic first.. so well.. i guess later part hee.. =) but.. seriously. she look like dan. like a duplicate. gosh. =) shes beautiful =)

the daes when im in the hospital...

Fri 25/5/07
im admitted in the hospital on the 25th of may due to contractions in the morning.. i thought im having gastric pain or something, but found out the pain is not the usual one as it come n goes. i waited... i waited for an hour.. the pain is still there. Then, i decided to head to the hospital. They transfer me to the delivery suite after they detected through the machine that im having high contractions.( Wow, nowadays the technology quite advance ar! haha.) Got a personal senior nurse to attend to me in the delivery suite to check my contractions, given pills to eat to lessen the contractions but no help so they given me drips to slow down. Been lying there on the bed for like 6 to 7 hrs before the contractions really subsides. Dan accompany me through. Cervix was close at that point.

Sat 26/5/07
hmm. cos my pregnancy about 34 weeks+, doctors define as premature so as to buy time n to lengthen the time, i have to take a pill every 6 hours to lessen contractions. The docs don't allow delivery. Dr siow said im able to discharge on sunday if everything is alrite. Well.. im glad to hear that.. haha so im looking forward to discharge. =)

Sun 27/5/07
Well.. things wasn't going that smooth, should always expect the unexpected. The docs give me a check on my cervix, it open by 2 cm already and they cant allow me to go home. There will be risk of having premature labour at home. So... i still continue taking pills and under observation through this machine (CTG) to observe my baby's heartbeat via my stomach contractions. The only thing that i hated was that the nurse will wake me up in the middle of the night to take pill.. some nurse will turn on the light first then wake me up, some will just stand beside me n call me to eat med.. so scary. Haha.

Mon 28/5/07
Dan is sweet, come early in the morning to accompany me and at nite go school. even bring my dolphin to the hospital. Gosh. so paiseh. hahaha. Todae i was feeling fine.

Tue 29/5/07
hmm. docs check on my cervix again. gosh. open to 2 - 3cm le.. worse. cant think of going home already.. but cos im already at 35 week so they are thinking of allowing spontaneous delivery. The checks, pills, observations still goes on.....classmates and collegues gathered and visited me in the hospital, i missed them though. haha. am so glad to see them.. was still joking around and talk.. haha. guess will catch up with them soon soon..~ haaa yunes is nice. visit me and we talked for quite awhile.

Wed 30/5/07
Im feeling weird today.. the stomach is having contractions, but i still able to take it. for the whole week, been reading magazines and newspapers. Been seeing ppl admitted and discharged in my ward but im still here.. beside, there is this pregnant lady too, having a twins in the stomach. i remembered i was asked to go into the labour suite when im sleeping at around 10+pm.. after mum n dan just went home.. as the docs thinks tt im having contractions. Oh well.. im being wheelchaired down again.. dan got home showered already then returned to the hospital in the middle of the night and accompany me through the night in the labour suite. At around 5.15am.. im being send back to ward.. (-_-"")

Thurs 31/5/07
back to ward in the morning around 5.15am.. but my real nightmare of the contractions starts around 6am.. i went to the toilet, hardly can i walk, drag myself to the toilet. Tot is the normal contractions, i waited without informing the nurse. The pain is terrible, menstrual cramp x2. Each pain interval is approx 5 mins. i waited till 7am. a nurse came to do routine check on me. i told her im in pain, she sae she will do the CTG scan on me first thing later. gosh.. i waited.. forgetting how long.. the machine finally came.. i cried after the scan starts for around 15 mins or so.. cos i knew this pain is not the usual one.. then doc came.. sae he will send me down to labour suite for a painkiller injections. was sent down again around 9+am. The nurse didn't give me any painkiller, i was so in pain tt i bite on the towel tt i bought down with me till my toothache... i try to tolerate as much as i can. dan is having his split shift at 2pm. im telling myself he will reach soon.. soon. so i must tolerate. n guess wad. the labour suite only allow husband to go in, not even own mother are allow. mama waited outside the whole day... but she only can know my condition through the phone. i tolerate till 1+pm when the pain interval is 2 - 3mins apart.. its making me go insane. the nurse suggest i take the pain relief on the air mask that can help subsides 40% of the pain without effect so i took it. Its still pain though but i just tolerate, the docs says that cos the uterus is contracting thats why im feeling the aching pain.

when dan came.. i cant take it anymore.. broke into tears that i have been controlling for so long. another cervix check on me again.. this time.. it open by 5-6cm already.. i continue waiting.. the pain interval continue to decrease to 1 min or rather seconds apart. its killing me. but i still dunwan to take the painkiller injection at my thigh.. the docs confirmed that i will labour on this day but not sure when , she say it depends on the contractions and the width of the cervix. At around 6.15pm, my cervix is 7cm apart.. and the feeling is like passing motion.( Big Shit.. oops.!! ) around 6.45pm.. i press the bell.. this time i really feel like shitting.. ! its like oh shit! Coming out le .. then they check my cervix again.. 9cm apart!. n finally.. this time they are all prepared for the labour... baby warmer machine is switched on, the tools and light to use are ready, waiting for the doctor and my water bag to burst.

All the nurses and doc were all asking me to push n push harder for the water bag to burst.. but no choice, baby wanted to come out.. but my bag still not burst yet, so the doc use a tool to poke the water bag.. wah. suddenly u will feel like having water flood below. hahha. gosh. Serious! mm. Dan was there the whole process. Just have to push when u experience each contractions,( its seriously just like shitting...!! haha. gosh. ) when push n push.. the head of the baby come out first... then when its really coming out.. i saw the nurse took a pair of scissor, i nearly faint but i continue pushing n didn't really feel the pain that she cut. Then comes the baby's cries... the nurse sae i was lucky cos esthervina is entangled by the umbilicord twice. they faster cut it off... yup. after the baby is the placenta( i nt sure is this spelling ant.. haha) mmm. they pull it out.. n dan sae it look like a lamp chop. haha. Yucks. Cannot tahan. haha. mmm.. so relief after that.. hee.. she is put under the warmer, being wiped, weigh and wrapped.. haha. She is so beautiful.. yup.. n now the doc want to do the stitches on me.. Ouchs. but still alrite.. cos she gt inject anesthetic but will still feel abit hurt though. yup. Esthervina is born on the 31/05/07 at 7:01pm. hee.. i couldn't sleep for the whole nite. i dunno why. im suppose to be so so so tired after the labour but i cant sleep. haha perhaps. too excited.

fri 1/6/07
happy.. finally come le.. yup. todae is my husband, dan's birthday. haha. my birthdae gift to him is our precious girl, esthervina. =)

sat 2/6/07
Discharged. hee... home sweet home! bringing my baby girl home. =)

Girl girl Girl ~

hee. todae went for my check up in KK. went for a growth screening for the baby. n Yes. it is a GirL. haha.hee. the baby is so so healthy. with her head diameter of 275 mm n her abdominal of 265mm.. hee . doc sae she is growing well n fine. her head, abdominal n leg all medium size =) Grin. i can even see her facE! gosh. so pretty. yea. looks lyk dan. but........ still gt look lyk mi ok!? hahaha. :P gonna post her foto to let u guys see. =) she is so damn cute. Can u see her beautiful face? hee. her eyes, nose n mouth? =)




Hmm. ytd karen n ric came to look for mi for dinner. haha surprise to see them but im just over-excited. haha. had dinner.. then talk about gd old days.. haha. next wk meeting sarah n rest i guess.. they tot of meeting mi todae but i gt check up. =) but. hee its so swt of them. karen n classmates called mi up during lesson talking to mi. n guess wad! jojo also sae hi. im so surprise and in the meantime so so touched.. im just so happy to hear from them.. miss them lots. haha. karen also misses mi!! gosh something wrong wif mi todae. keeep luffing. gosh. i must be too overwhelming by my baby's foto above. hahaha. been working.. nothin much. cashiering all the time.. mmm sitting down there rotting. *evil smile*

oh gosh. my birth due next month! so fast.. 30th of june.. gosh gosh gosh. excited..!! grin. i've gotten alot of baby clothes.. hee.

mmm. seems lyk long time nv meet up with xz n rest. i understand all very busy with their sch stuff.. but its okay haha. =) guess will haf dinner soon~.. mmm . yup.

n oh yes. yup. my baby will be called esthervina. hee. nice nice? hee.

*yawns* todae kinda tired. gt to Zzz. tml gt to work.. haha.. shall update tml stuff... hee

nitenitess.... =)

Thoughts.

just sent dan's resume over to the manager in grand hyatt hotel. i hope that he will get back to him as soon as possible. =) Everybody is leaving in Vila'ge to new environment, its time to move on for him too.. hee. mmm. This morning gotten a phone call from Chen Ming, he is calm when i told him about my life now, he is happy for me and know we can do it. Well, i guess we will got quite alot to catch up when we meet up. hmmm.

Todae karen n guys meet up for dinner and they are going to sentosa today. They invited me. But i've got work today at 6pm. Anyway.. i not sure why i don't know how to face the classmates. Perhaps i just don't feel like explaining anything. Thats why i don't want to go. Karen n rest who know will tell them on my behalf. I guess that will be fine.. yup.

Well, besides working, read up books and doing some housework at home. I arrange meet ups with xz and guys. haha.Dying to meet them. hahaha.

Oh well, What really surprise me is that XJ msg me early morning telling me not to buy cot. saying that they will get a new cot for me. oh man. so sweet of them.. =) lurve them to bits.

Hei Hei.. i go rest awhile.. later got to work at 6pm..

=)

Raining Again.. -_-"

ya. it rains again.. hmm. sians. Went back to work yesterday, nothing much, as it is weekdays so as per normal not much customer. And me was rotting inside the cashier counter. haha. yes. me alone. from 11 to 6. im locked inside the cashier counter.. haha. but still alrite, its better than im staying at home.

am helping dan with his resume now, he decided to reject the supervisor job in chinatown and decided to head for another in Grand Hyatt Hotel as a club manager wanted to bring him in and recommend him in the departments in the hotel. So, he decided to give it a shot.

mmm.. yea. thats all.

What a day.. hee..

ahh. wad a day.. slept with dan till late afternoon todae.. so shiok. haha. yesterday after parting with karen and janise, i went to find dan to off work at 12am.. then we together with our collegues head off to rivervally for supper and as well as the farewell supper for our teamleader. We reached home around 2.45am.. slept at 3.15am .

Yesterday the meet up with karen and janise was nice. Nice meeting them and catch up alittle about their attachement experience. Seems like things wasn't going that smooth for some of them during attachement. We thought of having a healthy buffet that consists of variety of vegetables with no MSG at RafflesCity but.. who knows.. the resturant shift to somewhere else so we headed off to marina square. We ended up eating in the Asian Kitchen.Alrite. Nice noodle they have got. haha. We window shop around, went to see maternity clothing that is like so ex. haha. The kiddy palace in marina square is so huge, i guess we spent around an hour window shop that place. From maternity wear to baby cot to baby prams and to all those things that baby uses to their toys.. so exciting to see all these things and yea.. we were like thinking how fortunate the children are nowadays.. haha.

Next we head to the Times bookstore, spent around 45 mins or so looking around for interesting books and magazines. Actually i thought of getting a self-inspiration book but i couldn't find any. Karen was looking around for cook books, she mentioned that she is recently interested in cooking. We talked, shared and joke. Though the meet up only consist the three of us but it was really nice. I shared with them what i've got about the labour informations through the net and they shared with me about their friend's experience during the labour. But.. facing them makes me feel bad as i feel that when the school reopens, classmates will start questioning them about me. where is gina? why never come to school and so on.. i tried to put myself in their shoe, and i know it will be hard for them if they were to start explaining things to them. Cos' i don't wish to explain anything thats why i did not announce to everybody else. But.. im just glad. glad that they told me they will just deal with it calmly, theres nothing to explain to them and there is no need for them or me to explain to the rest if i don't wish to. Which is.. true. =)

Dan went for a job interview today, at chinasquare, for a job post of supervior. Well, i knew he rather head for the job in another hotel than this resturant but since he end up decided to go and try out this interview, perhaps its a good start. Anyway, no matter where he want to work, i will definitely give him my support. At least he is not slacking and yes he is a workaholic that i don't have to worry, for this family he is trying hard to work more and upgrade himself more. Now he wanted to move on to a higher level makes me feel even ease at heart.

Urge =)

hmm.. nothing much. just have the urge of setting up a blog to share my experience, my thoughts and what i have been doing lately.. i guess this blog will definitely fill up with the memories that i will always keep and i never forget. i named my blog title as ' a new life. a new me. a new family' .

A new life refers to my baby girl, we are all anticipating for her arrival at the end of june. Its exciting with a mixture of anxiety feeling. oh yes. Its getting nearer, day by day i can feel her movement inside me so strong and active. Its amazing. Tats what i can feel. Just gotten some milkbottles and some necessary things for this baby.. so fast gonna be 7 months soon.. look.. so cute.. all pink pink de..hee.

A new me. Already became someone's wife and soon becoming a mother. My thoughts, views, emotions and feeling towards things happening around me changed. Yes of course, its a must to change isnt? I feel that im a changed person, not like before. Somehow, Somewhere, Someparts of me changed.. but i cant figure it out where.. actually i guess im still myself just that my thinking becoming more differently. How diff? i also not sure. just feel so. Now i understand being a mum is not easy, i always respect my mum and admire her. But... now, after knowing that im a mother-soon-to-be, i respect my mum even more. More than ever. Im grateful to my parents, esp my mother who helped me all this while. I owed her lots.

A new family. From 24th of march onwards, i have a family of my own. I remembered clearly and always kept that in mind of what the solemniser said to my husband and i that day.

He said..
"From this very moment onwards, you are husband and wife, both of you have to learn to accept each other no matter how and must learn to appreciate each other, doesn't means that after you have signed that paper, courtship is over, its not that, both of you still can have courtship in this marriage."

He told me that i have to learn to appreciate my husband who will be always working hard outside for this family and dan have to learn to appreciate me for being a housewife taking care of the house and baby. He mentioned that after signing the paper, what both of us do is not and cannot think of " i " but must think of " we". This is exactly what aileen wrote in that book for us too, which is true and i understand it.

My husband, Ramdan is working hard for this family, i must also bucked up. In terms of my thinking and all.. cos' for sometime ago my thoughts was always that negative, depressed and felt like im all alone in this world. I cried, breakdown cos of those negative thoughts inside me. But i felt alot alot better now... cos' i still have my gd buddies around me who encouraged me, that makes me stand up and face it with positive thoughts. I even went for counselling, the counselor lady is sweet, she encourage me to face it with positive attitude be it the situation turn out to be bad or good, i just have to accept it. She would call and ask how is my husband and i doing, asking me to be happy and not to worry too much as it will affect the baby. yup. Not only my buddies, my good friend cum neighour also help me lots. Thanx.. she always come up and accompany me when she is free, thats so sweet of her. n of cos.. not forgetting my classmates karen, janise, yq and jas =) . Beside them.... i guess i really want to thank my husband.. he is always here. From the day that we found out my pregnancy, he never once abandon me..leave me or shaft me aside. Knowing he is stress and frustrated but he is still dealing with me, my emotions and my negative thoughts so calmly, consolling me. Im just glad. or rather.. more than glad.