Esthervina =)

hee. been abit busy at home lately. helping dan with his sch project. wah. just like studying. but gd ar. like tt i manage to study other stuff too. he is in diploma in international hotel management. so its like about hotel stuff n all.. hmm. not bad though. i helped him with two of his reports and powerpoint.. hmm. ok la. help him do then my brain wun rust. haha.

hmm nothing much. beside resting. changing diapers. feeding. i will go online watch youtube.. while resting. cos cant sit up too much. must rest in bed. haha.

i dunno is i think of my grandma too much but i dreamt of her.. she came to visit vina with my grandfather in my dream! gosh. hee.

oh yea. dan allows esthervina to take foto le. haha

guess wad??

i caught her smiling. n i faster took it down. wah. its not easy man. i waited for her to smile . haha. but this shot is nice. haha. soo cute.

hee. my precious girl. Esthervina. =)

simple.

this blog suppose to be a simple n personal "journal" of mine to keep track of my pregnancy.. haha. but well i guess its alrite to show others and share my experience n stuff..

i miss sch. i miss friends. i miss the sun. i miss movies. but still alrite. i noe i still able to do what i wanna do in future, just abit rush of time but i hope i can manage.

dan promise to bring me out for movie after my confinement period. =) hee. so swt of him.

vina is very healthy. hee. i secretly took down a pic of her small hand. hee . so cute.

i lurve her with all my heart. she is my everything.

I miss her.

i miss her.

my beloved grandma passed away todae.

she been waiting.. waiting. dunno for who.. bt i cant go see her.. even the last time.

im at confinement period and vina not even a mth.. so i cant go visit her.

im feeling depressed. so sad.. cos i cant even visit her.. even for the last time.

tears keep falling down from my eyes to my cheeks while im feeding vina.. im feeling so upset that i cant keep it.. i cant control my tears..

i din even let her see vina how can she just go like tt...

my grandma was alwways so swt. so cute. she will always stay in my heart.. love ya grandma.

=)

everydae is the same for me. hmm. milo.longan drink. ginger meat with fish n veg. mmm. but todae diff. haha. hmmm.. chicken brew with red wine. hmmm. n chicken with XO. gosh. haha.. hmm.. the more i see vina each dae.. the more pretty she is growing. hee.. like to move here and there le.. haha. hmm she like to KPO here n there le.. haha her big round eye like to turn here and there. haha. i turn on FM to let her listen everydae.. haha.

todae manage to wash myself with the herbal water that mum cook. finally. i get to wash myself. Ohh.. cannot tahan. hahaha. decided to cut my hair. yup short. hahha. i guesss its easier.

my stitches is healing now.. im able to move around more often.. manage to feed and change the diaper for my baby. haha. =)

Yes! annother 2 more wks or so i can go out le.. very fast one.. (trying to console myself) . haha. but yea. rite now i dun feel like seeing anyone also.. haha . i feel dirty cos cant shower. i feel awful lo.. so its best when i can meet up with the friends after my confinement period. haha.

todae xj brought my chicken essence. haha. so swt of her. thanx ger! haha. i reali appreciate it! =) hugz.

k k.. i cant get up too long. got to rest le.. hee. update tml. ciao~

hee....

Namey~

hee. just gotten vina her full name. haha . gonna get it reg soon~
Her full name is Chia Xin Yun Esthervina Ramdan. hee.. beautiful. haha. mmm. went for check up in the polyclinic.. doctor say she is fine. doing very well n dun nid to go back le.. haha. =) grin grin. she gain weight! which is a gd sign too.. afterall she abit premature. yup. hee.. onli lik a wk+ her hair grow quite long.. hee. sweet girl but hate to bath. cry so loud when showering. haha.
hmm. now confinement period. got to stay at home.. cannot eat outside food. cannot shower. cannot drink plain water. everydae drink longan water with red dates and hot milo. sleep the whole dae. nid to rest n get my bone back to the original. cos mama sae during labour the bone go all stretch out.. now must rest n lie more for it to recover.. ya lo.

haha. cannot tahan dan.. everydae cum back or before work will keep staring n disturb vina.. kiss her here n there. till her face gt abit of rash. i forbid him to kiss her face already. cos baby face sensative ma. haha.
k k.. enuff here.. continue tml.. check out on vina le.. ciao~ haha.

Amazing experience.

Back.

haha. its really been awhile that i last blogged. well.. haha what to sae. was in the hospital for 9 days till i delivered esthervina on the 31st of may. haha.. she come early.. expected delivery was suppose to be on the 30th of june. but luckily she is able to come home with me without having to stay in the specialcare unit. well. my husband said cos vina is a newborn so its best not to take her pic first.. so well.. i guess later part hee.. =) but.. seriously. she look like dan. like a duplicate. gosh. =) shes beautiful =)

the daes when im in the hospital...

Fri 25/5/07
im admitted in the hospital on the 25th of may due to contractions in the morning.. i thought im having gastric pain or something, but found out the pain is not the usual one as it come n goes. i waited... i waited for an hour.. the pain is still there. Then, i decided to head to the hospital. They transfer me to the delivery suite after they detected through the machine that im having high contractions.( Wow, nowadays the technology quite advance ar! haha.) Got a personal senior nurse to attend to me in the delivery suite to check my contractions, given pills to eat to lessen the contractions but no help so they given me drips to slow down. Been lying there on the bed for like 6 to 7 hrs before the contractions really subsides. Dan accompany me through. Cervix was close at that point.

Sat 26/5/07
hmm. cos my pregnancy about 34 weeks+, doctors define as premature so as to buy time n to lengthen the time, i have to take a pill every 6 hours to lessen contractions. The docs don't allow delivery. Dr siow said im able to discharge on sunday if everything is alrite. Well.. im glad to hear that.. haha so im looking forward to discharge. =)

Sun 27/5/07
Well.. things wasn't going that smooth, should always expect the unexpected. The docs give me a check on my cervix, it open by 2 cm already and they cant allow me to go home. There will be risk of having premature labour at home. So... i still continue taking pills and under observation through this machine (CTG) to observe my baby's heartbeat via my stomach contractions. The only thing that i hated was that the nurse will wake me up in the middle of the night to take pill.. some nurse will turn on the light first then wake me up, some will just stand beside me n call me to eat med.. so scary. Haha.

Mon 28/5/07
Dan is sweet, come early in the morning to accompany me and at nite go school. even bring my dolphin to the hospital. Gosh. so paiseh. hahaha. Todae i was feeling fine.

Tue 29/5/07
hmm. docs check on my cervix again. gosh. open to 2 - 3cm le.. worse. cant think of going home already.. but cos im already at 35 week so they are thinking of allowing spontaneous delivery. The checks, pills, observations still goes on.....classmates and collegues gathered and visited me in the hospital, i missed them though. haha. am so glad to see them.. was still joking around and talk.. haha. guess will catch up with them soon soon..~ haaa yunes is nice. visit me and we talked for quite awhile.

Wed 30/5/07
Im feeling weird today.. the stomach is having contractions, but i still able to take it. for the whole week, been reading magazines and newspapers. Been seeing ppl admitted and discharged in my ward but im still here.. beside, there is this pregnant lady too, having a twins in the stomach. i remembered i was asked to go into the labour suite when im sleeping at around 10+pm.. after mum n dan just went home.. as the docs thinks tt im having contractions. Oh well.. im being wheelchaired down again.. dan got home showered already then returned to the hospital in the middle of the night and accompany me through the night in the labour suite. At around 5.15am.. im being send back to ward.. (-_-"")

Thurs 31/5/07
back to ward in the morning around 5.15am.. but my real nightmare of the contractions starts around 6am.. i went to the toilet, hardly can i walk, drag myself to the toilet. Tot is the normal contractions, i waited without informing the nurse. The pain is terrible, menstrual cramp x2. Each pain interval is approx 5 mins. i waited till 7am. a nurse came to do routine check on me. i told her im in pain, she sae she will do the CTG scan on me first thing later. gosh.. i waited.. forgetting how long.. the machine finally came.. i cried after the scan starts for around 15 mins or so.. cos i knew this pain is not the usual one.. then doc came.. sae he will send me down to labour suite for a painkiller injections. was sent down again around 9+am. The nurse didn't give me any painkiller, i was so in pain tt i bite on the towel tt i bought down with me till my toothache... i try to tolerate as much as i can. dan is having his split shift at 2pm. im telling myself he will reach soon.. soon. so i must tolerate. n guess wad. the labour suite only allow husband to go in, not even own mother are allow. mama waited outside the whole day... but she only can know my condition through the phone. i tolerate till 1+pm when the pain interval is 2 - 3mins apart.. its making me go insane. the nurse suggest i take the pain relief on the air mask that can help subsides 40% of the pain without effect so i took it. Its still pain though but i just tolerate, the docs says that cos the uterus is contracting thats why im feeling the aching pain.

when dan came.. i cant take it anymore.. broke into tears that i have been controlling for so long. another cervix check on me again.. this time.. it open by 5-6cm already.. i continue waiting.. the pain interval continue to decrease to 1 min or rather seconds apart. its killing me. but i still dunwan to take the painkiller injection at my thigh.. the docs confirmed that i will labour on this day but not sure when , she say it depends on the contractions and the width of the cervix. At around 6.15pm, my cervix is 7cm apart.. and the feeling is like passing motion.( Big Shit.. oops.!! ) around 6.45pm.. i press the bell.. this time i really feel like shitting.. ! its like oh shit! Coming out le .. then they check my cervix again.. 9cm apart!. n finally.. this time they are all prepared for the labour... baby warmer machine is switched on, the tools and light to use are ready, waiting for the doctor and my water bag to burst.

All the nurses and doc were all asking me to push n push harder for the water bag to burst.. but no choice, baby wanted to come out.. but my bag still not burst yet, so the doc use a tool to poke the water bag.. wah. suddenly u will feel like having water flood below. hahha. gosh. Serious! mm. Dan was there the whole process. Just have to push when u experience each contractions,( its seriously just like shitting...!! haha. gosh. ) when push n push.. the head of the baby come out first... then when its really coming out.. i saw the nurse took a pair of scissor, i nearly faint but i continue pushing n didn't really feel the pain that she cut. Then comes the baby's cries... the nurse sae i was lucky cos esthervina is entangled by the umbilicord twice. they faster cut it off... yup. after the baby is the placenta( i nt sure is this spelling ant.. haha) mmm. they pull it out.. n dan sae it look like a lamp chop. haha. Yucks. Cannot tahan. haha. mmm.. so relief after that.. hee.. she is put under the warmer, being wiped, weigh and wrapped.. haha. She is so beautiful.. yup.. n now the doc want to do the stitches on me.. Ouchs. but still alrite.. cos she gt inject anesthetic but will still feel abit hurt though. yup. Esthervina is born on the 31/05/07 at 7:01pm. hee.. i couldn't sleep for the whole nite. i dunno why. im suppose to be so so so tired after the labour but i cant sleep. haha perhaps. too excited.

fri 1/6/07
happy.. finally come le.. yup. todae is my husband, dan's birthday. haha. my birthdae gift to him is our precious girl, esthervina. =)

sat 2/6/07
Discharged. hee... home sweet home! bringing my baby girl home. =)